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Clubbing it

I am sorry that you haven't heard from me for days. This is because absolutely NOTHING happened in my life for about 2 days. NO phone calls, no dates: just life at the grindstone. For those people who think that the single life is all glitz and unattached glamor, so ...

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Bikram Yoga

So last night I went to do Bikram Yoga. How did I get roped into it? I asked my ex to join me for a Zumba class (it was bring a guy, get in free day). He convinced me that Bikram Yoga was MUCH better because it's maximum calorie burn ...

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Closure

Well, Ladies and Gentlemen, the dam finally broke. I was so consumed with my fantasies that Lex was missing me as much as I was missing him, and with the hopes that he would realize the error of his ways, that I decided to contact him.  I know, I know... ...

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Great Friendships

I am feeling extraordinarily happy right now. I had the most wonderful evening, and was reminded of the importance of great friends. My friend Dana called me and asked if I wanted to meet her at Ralph's for Italian ices. When it comes to choosing between wallowing and Ralph's ...

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Wallowing

I am still wallowing in my own misery a bit. I have been feeling really sad about Lex. About the loss of the potential of a really good relationship. But I guess that unless both people are looking to fully realize the potential, there is no potential. And so it ...

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Unsettled

I took Lex out for dinner. His energy made me feel nervous – even anxious. He admitted that he is very stressed. For the first time (probably ever) we really spoke. He told me about all his anxieties, his upset, his feeling of unhappiness. He told me some real information about himself, his aspirations, his family. I listened.

The nature of our relationship has always been escapist. What I love about

Battle of the Witless

Of course, I don’t learn my lesson. I went to the spa on a girl’s night out with one of my great friends. I had told Lex a week before that I had planned it, and of course he doesn’t forget a thing. So he met us in the lobby. He was actually quite sweet as always, which is the problem.  Every time we see each other, we have a great time together, are very compatible, and things feel very… easy and relaxed. There seems to be a deep connection between us which neither of us seem to be able to either commit to or abandon. It leaves us swinging in limbo. And I suspect that I am the one whose feelings are most likely to be shredded, just hanging there for all to see in

The Cookie Crumbles…

I haven’t written for months now, and now I really wish I had. I had a death in my family in February, causing me to leave the country for a month. My awful boss gave me a written warning because of my “extended absence.” Apparently a death in the family is insufficient reason to miss work. So I decided to find a new job, while dealing with the death of a loved one

Teary Date

I have been a bit of a hermit since Lex and I broke up. I haven’t been in the mood for dating. Initially I kept myself busy with friends, parties, activities, and dieting. (There is no better revenge than living well and looking fantastic!) But eventually the false gaiety grated on my nerves more than being alone. So I decided to just “be.”  The first 2 weeks were fantastic. I enjoyed my own company

Cyber Stalking

If I don’t start dating soon, or get a hobby, I think I will go insane. I have begun to cyber-stalk Lex. Ok, not really begun. More like, its become a little out of control a few weeks after it began. I spend more time on the dating site checking to see if and when he has been on than on actually looking for someone new.  There is something uncomfortably satisfying to see that he logged in on a

What the????

Why is it that I am “meeting” such losers? It seems that every man I come into contact with is breaking my friend, Michelle’s golden rule(s). I know it is a bad economy, but is it too much to ask for to meet someone who is gainfully employed? Apparently.

I know this sounds snobbish, but I am quite spoiled, and am used to a certain standard of living. I am not a gold-digger. Everything I

Complete Insanity

As I have previously mentioned, cyber-stalking has its drawbacks. Let’s just start by saying that Lex is a creature of habit. He logs in to the dating site between 6 and 8am, 6 and 8pm, and sometimes between 1 and 2am. (He suffers from insomnia when he’s miserable, a thought which now gives me mild pleasure :-). Anyway, on Saturday afternoon, he logged in at 4pm, and then only logged in again at 2pm on

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